When I was at home, I had everything, but the boyfriend. Now that I’ve moved, it’s just me and the boyfriend. And there’s absolutely nothing wrong with that, but it will always feel like little pieces of me are missing. With that in mind, that’s the big barrier I have to personally get over … all on my own. I have to stop being in the past and missing what I was comfortable and familiar with. Moving here was a great decision for many reasons, I get to finally be with my boyfriend, the months of being apart for nearly two years was enough for us ( and we know it’s not over, thanks to the Navy ). I’m figuring out my independence here, making decisions on my own, just being away from familiarity. I’m growing up here, doing the adult thing, I guess you could say. And of course, life just isn’t easy. Everyday is a challenge and for the past month it’s been a struggle to figure out this one out. I’m very hesitant about doing things on my own and hopefully I get over that fairly soon cause it’s really holding me back.
Next week, I’ll be heading home back to Washington to get my license, hopefully that’ll be the big door opener. I’ll be able to get a car and finally get out of the house on my on accord. A lot of things can/will happen for me once I get that car. Hopefully a job follows suit, I seriously need/want one.
Until next time.