Lately, I can’t stop thinking about what the future will bring. And it’s definitely the fact that we’re so close to the next chapter, my hopes keep rising that it’ll be here sooner. As some of you know, that’s definitely not the case.
Where will we be?
What will I be doing?
What crazy adventure will life and the military take us on?
Will we be happy with what was brought on our doorstep?
The questions are just endless and the waiting game isn’t always my favorite. It’s crazy to me that being a part of the military life, so many decisions are out of our control. I don’t think that I’ve ever sat back and really pondered about it. A lot of decisions are based around it, like choosing which job to have, when to start a family, the list goes on. It’s not exactly a normal life, but it is ours.
I know that a lot of things will happen, but it’s just the when that really gets to me. If we lived in a world where everything was working and never had an issue, we’d have new orders and getting to move around the holidays. And that’s just a few months away, but as of right now, that won’t be happening. It’s been bittersweet to see a lot of our friends getting ready to make moves with the next chapter of their Navy career. We’re ultimately happy for them, but we’re just as eager to start that next chapter.
As time keeps ticking, we’re losing our window to put in our dream sheet for the 1st quarter. And it makes the impending delay that more dreadful and unmotivating. Lately, we’ve just been hearing bad and rather upsetting news and zero good news. For now, I’m staying positive and hopeful, but some days (like today) just outright suck.
I’m sorry this is a whiny and morbid post for a Friday, but all of this has been a constant in my mind. I’m not asking for pity or anything, it’s just one of those days where I need to write things out to get them off my brain.
I know I’m not the only one that has had these moments, please share them below!